Welcome to Kamika's heavenly journey!

FROM LOST TO FOUND IN JESUS

Looking back into my younger years and where I am today, I am much more confident in who I am. There was a real before and after Jesus effect that was very clear to me. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but in the before there was something lacking in my life. I was going through life and achieving the usual developmental milestones in my academics and doing the things I liked but something was missing. I never knew what love was or how to love . I thought I loved myself but didn’t know how to love anyone else. In fact I dreaded being too close to someone, whether physically or emotionally. My heart didnt desire to want the best for others and my thoughts were filled with doubt, selfishness, condemnation, fear, lust and pride. There were times when I didnt have any reason to cry yet I found myself crying. There was no passion for anything good and I don’t remember having any hopes or dreams for the years to come. I believed in God and even remember going to church, but I didnt have a relationship with God or walk according to his teachings. I preferred my own company than that of others and didnt speak much. I did have thoughts of my own but felt that they were not significant enough to express and often were of an impure nature.

It wasn’t until my 20s when I decided to follow my grandmothers advise . She used to ask me over and over , if I was reading my bible. My answer was always “No grandma”, until that day when I made a decision to do the very thing she continued to ask me week after week. That day was the day of the rest of my life. From the day I started to read the bible my life began to transform and still continues to be transformed today. I fell in love with Jesus Christ. I started to understand what He did for me and all mankind and that was the first time in my life I knew what love truly was. His peace and joy crept into my heart and I realized that nothing in this world satisfies as much as His presence in my life. Life became more meaningful and he started to give me desires that he began to fulfill in the years that followed. He still continues to transform me and the growth that I have seen in myself has been undoubtedly because of his power at work within me. He reveals more of Himself to me over time and gives me purpose as I pursue the things that He places on my heart to do. I will be forever grateful to my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ and his indwelling Holy Spirit within me for all my days. He has truly made me new and I am excited to see what He will continue to do in and through me until my last breath.